Today I realize that, I don’t hate the man I call father, I feel ashamed of him!
This man has just told me that my mother is such a stupid woman.
Let me tell you, the one who I call dad (I wish I could say “the man who I used to call dad”):
A man who had bitten his ex-wife like a dog, then told every colleagues of yours how bitchy she was, even poured those rubbish into his 9-year old daughter’s ears, and repeated that 8 years later is NOT a TRUE man! (I wish you had told me those shit words with implication, but NO, you said it DIRECTLY!)
A man who, afterthat, said he has the damned stupid right to criticize the woman he used to call wife with his erroneous reasons is NOT a TRUE man!
A man who did violence to his wife RIGHT IN FRONT OF his child NOT ONLY ONCE, regardless of her imploringness, but immediately made a volte-face when realizing sign of his wife’s intention of a divorce, is the most shameful HYPOCRITE one can meet in a lifetime!
A man who claimed an inhumanly reasonless compensation of 120 million VND from his daughter’s mother after the divorce, even he had known she is the one who would bring up his child and had the salary 2/3 as much as his, DEFINITELY HAS THE MOST WORTHLESS CHARACTER IN THIS UNIVERSE! (Don’t think that you gave us the house is the way to show off your fucking generosity. I know some other men who can only earn enough money to feed themselves, but they walk away with bare hands, with PRIDE. And you, you walked away with your !@#$%^& pride which people considered it as a SHAME)
A man who has never given his holly crap allowance to his ex-wife to help raising his child while always demands to interfere with her life and tries to teach her his ridiculous moral lessons about right, honesty and responsibility, is SUCH A CLOWN!
A man who abandoned the 2nd woman who gave birth to his child after knowing it was a girl, visited them a couple of times a month, prevented them from caring of his life, and EVEN hasn’t had marriage certificate to disclaim his responsibilities easier in case they broke up, is a GOD-DAMNED &^%$#@!
Today (actually you’ve said it trillions of times) you have told me that my mother is ignorant, you think that makes you more clever? How about finding a mirror and looking at yourself? I assure that the only thing you can see is the reflection of a pitifully arrogant fat, pot-bellied old man (or should I change it into loser). While your ex-wife is having a happy family and living a more comfortable life than before, you are still living on your conservative thoughts in which there’s no idea about stability: no certain home, no family and a mediocre place in the office. And REMEMBER that: while you’re satisfied with humiliating mom, she always tells me not to swear at you (actually behind your back) and to try to be tolerant. See? Even her brain is not as logical and clever as yours, she’s still more venerable than you!
You used to tell me how intelligent you were, how successfully you finished your work, how necessary you were in the office, how much people admired you. But we are living in the present, not past, so who you are now? Your lack of will and responsibility has made you noone in this world. The chance presented itself to you to do and defend your PhD thesis – a base to get a better life for you and your family – but your discourage made it out of your reach. Intelligence is meaningless in this case. And now, you are just an insignificant official. You just sit there and watch people younger than you leave you behind to get a higher place and have a more successful career.
Family should be the most effective support of you when you are getting older, but it’s YOU who drove them away from your life. That’s so unwise, even ignorant, I have to say. The more your other daughter grows up, the sooner she will find there’s no point of loving you unconditionally while you are treating her too indifferently. Do you really want to spend the rest of your life living in loneliness? It has taken enough time to save your vain face. Please wake up from your proud imagination and get back to real life. Remember that there isn’t only you existing in the world, you MUST care of people around you, not isolate yourself from everybody.
Finally, I know I’m not as clever as you which makes you disappointed. But that can’t explain for your discouraged attitude towards my achievement. If I get 4th grade in class, you’re always like “ONLY 4th grade?? What a shame, you MUST be on top!”. If I get 9 in exam, you usually say “NIIIIINE? Why not 10?”. Even no sooner as have I had confidence in my faculty than you disappoint me with your rubbish words “ What kind of day-dreamer you are? You’re talented in NOTHING! Everything is just so-so. You think that good marks in exam can make you a genius in one day? Bullshit!”. I remember once, when mom was away from home on an assignment, I went home with a 8 mark in Eng. Right after I showed you the notebook, you immediately grabbed your cane and hit me as strongly as you can and broke out into abuse that how ignorant I was. I didn’t know to which it can led without the neighbor’s dissuassion.
They say “Spare the rod and spoil the kid”, I know it’s true in some cases. But don’t forget that children need sweetness to caress and courage them, not bitterness. I’m no longer a kid, but the pain of a childhood with no support from her !@#$%^& father will remain in my heart forever and ever.
PS: You said that mom was so stupid that she couldn’t teach me to be a better person, right? Then you’re wrong. I had thought that I’d feel more happy if you guys got back and we could be a family again. But then I realized how lucky I was without you in my life. If I had lived with you, I couldn’t have been the “me” today. And I’m proud of who I am. No matter what you say, it’s none of your business. You have had no right to stick your nose into my my business since the day I saw mother try to defend herself hopelessly against your beast nature.
Btw, I think you found it overjoyed to speak in such a way that muzzle me and made me feel like a loser in front of you, right? You have to pay a heavy price for it somedays, I SWEAR! Today you punch me right in my face, tomorrow I will knock you down to the deepest of hell.
I’d rather have been born without a father than have a father like you! (I wish I lived in the Western, so that I can break off with you and don’t have to call you father anymore without any difficulties. But I’m living in
Mom, sometimes I thought that you’d have had a more comfortable life if I hadn’t been born. So you didn’t have to marry that man and had the chance to live happily ever after with a better husband. You deserve it, really.
[The Book of You]
(Made by www.xanga.com/surveys_for_nimrods, Don`t remove this tag)
Chapter One : Basics
001. Name: Giang Tran
002. Nicknames: Nhim,Birdie, Superpiggie, Mun, etc
003. Middle Name: Chau
004. Initials: TCG :D
005. Birthday: Dec 5th 1992
006. Birthplace: Hospital.. called sth +_+
007. Amount you weighed at birth: No idea
008. Weight now: 48kg
009. Height: 1m63
010. Hair color: Black
011. Is that natural or dyed?: Natural
012. Eye color: Brownish black
013. Do you wear colored contacts?: nope
014. Do you have braces?: nope
015. Do you have any piercings?: yep, 4. Wish to have 7
016. What about tattoos?: I’d love to have one on my neck or arm
017. How long is your hair?: approximate middle-back length
Chapter Two : Friends
018. Who`s your best friend?: Nien
019. Name some other close friends: hmm...none, there’re sb else I usually play with but we arent that close
020. Name some of you & your best friend's inside jokes: Too much to remember =)) It’s mostly me who play tricks on her
021. Who`s your oldest friend?: err... dunno
022. Do you have any friends in other grades?: yep
023. Name some similarities between you and your best friend: playful, cheerful, smtimes stupid, & hobbies
024. How did you meet your best friend?: junior high school
025. How well do your friends know you?: 70%
026. Which friends do you hangout with the most?: Nien, Bi
027. Which friends don`t you hangout with alot?: Else
028. Which friend is in most of your classes?: Bi
029. What friends do you sit with at lunch?: None, I hv lunch at home
030. Are you in any type of clique?: dont think so
Chapter Three : Family
031. Who do you live with?: mom, step-father, younger bro not by birth
032. Got any siblings? What are their names?: 2 bros not by birth
033. Are you oldest, youngest, or in the middle?: middle
034. Do you often fight with your siblings?: nope
035. Do you get along with your parents?: Ok
036. Do you spend more time with family or friends?: friends
037. Who's your favorite relative?: mom
038. Who's your least favorite relative?: none
039. Which family member are you closest too?: mom
040. Which relative do you hardly ever see?: a lot, including who i even dont know
Chapter Four : Beliefs
041. What`s your religion?: None
042. Do you practice your religion?: nope
043. Do you believe in ghosts and the paranormal?: kinda yep
044. Do you believe in heaven and hell?: nope
045. Do you believe in God and/or Satan?: nope
046. Do you believe in Ouija boards?: nope
047. Do you approve of witchcraft/magic?: a lil
048. Do you often attend church?: Never
049. Do you believe in angels and/or demons?: nope
050. Do you believe spells/magic actually work?: Some actual ones might.
051. Do you believe in love at first sight?: kinda nope
052. Has anyone tried to force their beliefs on you?: luckily nope
Chapter Five : From First to Last
053. First kiss: Gr.9
054. First friend: Bong, when we were 1 yr old or younger
055. First vacation: dont remember either
056. First memory: o.0 how can I remember
057. First class trip: Gr.1 or 2
058. First enemy: dont have (actually dont know) any enemies :D
059. First crush: kindergarten :))
060. First screenname: no idea
061. First email: ^”^...
062. First failing grade on report card: never :->
063. First time you learned to read: between 3 & 5 yrs old
064. First book you ever read: dont remember
065. Last person you hugged: Nien maybe
066. Last book you read: One Piece, if it means real book then the answer is The Thorn Birds, have to finish it after a 5-yr pause
067. Last class you had at school: Physics
068. Last laugh: This morning
069. Last time you were angry: last week, dont remeber the exact day
070. Last time you were sick: I am =.= sorethroat
071. Last time you took a quiz/test: the beginning of May
072. Last meal you ate: lunch
073. Last gift recieved: earrings frm Bi
074. Last kiss: dont know
075. Last time you saw your best friend: This morning
Chapter Six : Have You Ever...
076. Set something onfire: yep, my eyebrow
077. Done something illegal: yep
078. Burned a CD: yep
079. Been to a concert: yep
080. Bought clothing for over $200: nope T^T wish I have enough $
081. Dyed your hair an unnatural color: nope, but wish to, pink, red or blue
082. Stayed out past midnight: yep, Pirates of the Carribean: At world’s end
083. Been to a sports game: my class vs 9E when we were in gr.9
084. Traveled out of your country: yep, Thailand last year
085. Skipped school: yep
086. Skipped a class: yep
087. Got in trouble for something you didn’t do: hmm... maybe yep
088. Had a root canal and/or a tooth pulled: hell nope
089. Gotten a cavity: yep T_T
090. Gotten surgery of any kind: nope
091. Been rushed to a hospital: yep, fever
092. Been so sick you missed a week or more of school: nope
093. Fell up the stairs: :-? how to fall UP the stairs? I did fall DOWN the stairs many times, that why my knees hv that many scars
Chapter Seven : Hopes & Dreams
094. What`s your dream job?: kinda interior/advertisement designer
095. Do you have a job now, what is it?: will get soon, translator
096. What`s your goal right now?: pass the entrance exam to uni or get schoolarship to study abroad
097. What`s your greatest accomplishment?: dont know
098. If you were president, what would you do?: CHANGE everything
099. If you won the lottery, what would you do?: so happy that I couldnt think of anything else and laugh alone all the day like a psycho
100. What`s the weirdest dream you`ve ever had?: lose my teeth..
101. Did any of your dreams ever come true?: dont know
102. What did you want to be when you grew up when you were little?: err...bơm xe, bán tào phớ and bán đậu phụ =)) I swear, some other common job like teacher, policeman in addition.
103. Where did you always want to live?: crowded city or beach
104. Describe your dream house: I have many dream houses. Right now I want one with Spanish style
Chapter Nine : Way Back When
105. When you were little, what was your favorite show?: Bông hoa nhỏ & Ngôi nhà tuổi thơ
106. Favorite colors?: I prefer color combinations But if I have to make my choice then its red
107. Favorite place to shop?: nowhere
108. Did you have a blanket/stuffed animal you took everywhere?: nope
109. Did you wear a lot of plastic jewelry?: nope
110. Did you cry on the first day of school?: almost cry but I could hold them back. That’s why Im really proud of that I hv never ever cry on the 1st day of school :->
111. What did you do for fun when you were little?: play with toys, badminton, cá sấu lên bờ
112. Did you get up early just to watch Saturday morning cartoons?: nope, I treasure my sleep
113. Were you always outside?: nope
114. Who were your best friends?: None
115. Who were your enemies?: dont know
116. What colors were your room?: Cream
117. Did you change a lot since you were little?: not much, my mom said continually “Chả khác j hồi 2t” :D
Chapter Ten : A Closer Look
118. What emotion are you feeling right now?: Sleepy
119. What are your weaknesses?: gecko, death, pain, overconfidence
120. What are your strengths?: artistic sense, logical brain
121. Describe your personality in five words: stubborn, overconfident, pervert, insolent, childish
122. Are there any songs that make you cry?: Heart of sword (T.M. Revolution) and This love (Angela Aki)
123. When was the last time you cried?: dont remember
124. When was the last time you were extremely happy?: every time we played tricks on Minh, it was more than extremely happy!!!
125. Are you depressed and/or suicidal?: Nope
126. What's your outlook on life?: Life is for who deserve it.
127. Are you happy with your life?: totally
128. What's your motto?: dont have one
Chapter Eleven: Hygiene
129. Do you shower/bathe daily?: not in winter, Im sick of extreme weather
130. How many times do you brush your teeth daily?: twice or more
131. How often do you wash your face?: 3 times or more
132. Do you wash your hands a lot?: a lot lot
133. What shampoo/conditioner do you use?: DOnt remember the name
134. How long do your showers normally last?: 45-60 mins including washing my hair
135. Do you wear clothes twice in a row?: Sometimes
136. What toothepaste do you use?: Colgate, PS, & dome brought from Thailand
137. Did you ever drop a toothbrush in the tiolet by mistake?: Yep, fortunately its not mine :D
Chapter Twelve : This is the End
138. Random stuff now, what`s the weather like?: the sun is burning hot outside ><
139. What are you wearing?: T-shirt and short
140. What bus are you on?: none
141. Do you enjoy running?: nope
142. Can you write with both hands?: nope
143. What grade are you in?: going to 12
144. What`s the most common question people ask you?: Mày điên àh?
145. What`s your favorite article of clothing you own?: sporty
Back to the Miranda thing, the performances were so undescribably vờ cờ lờ sờ tờ bờ vờ hờ with Quang Vinh and a shithead named Thanh Duy idol or some stupid things like that and so on. And the worst part was the seem-to-be-walking-on-catwalk-but-even-n
The whole show sucked, absolutely. Fortunately I didnt have to pay for the ticket, if not I'd have regreted so much. That it wasnt until 10pm that I was home was the only comfortable thing of the day, yay yay :D
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